Thursday, 18 April 2019

Feeling 22

22 you have been a rocky, dramatic year. I feel like I've almost lived out my whole twenties in one year. Most of it has been rough in every sense of the word so as I'm about to turn 23 I thought it would be a good idea to reflect on the positive things that have happened. 

Career wise I took some much needed time out (sort of) to re-evaluate what path I would follow and I realised that sometimes there's a block in the road because thats not the path you need to take. I love what I do and I want to progress and continue that career. I am so lucky that I've found my forever career so young even if it has been a bit of a bumpy road.

In terms of finances, money hasn't been great at 22, but I finally managed to start saving for a house and each bit that I save gets me closer and closer to that goal.

Personally I have changed so much that some days I feel like a completely different person.          I feel stronger, more independent, calmer. I feel so much more freedom and more confident in who I am. Don't get me wrong, I had a massive knock in my confidence this year but I've built myself back up again and I'm rediscovering the person I was before January 2018.

Education is a tough one, after all I left university. So I guess you could say at 22 it was reinforced that having an education doesn't necessarily make you a better person, everyone is intelligent in their own right after all. 

I am definitely still single so in the conventional sense I shouldn't put a big fat tick in the relationship box. However, I guess its partially because I know what I bring to the table and I'm not afraid to eat alone. I don't see why I should and I'm not willing to accept things such as mind games or hypocrisy. So in that sense I'm giving it a big fat tick.

Finally health, I have lost the weight I gained over a stressful period of time, I've started not only going to the gym but also liking it (I think at some point this year I may have had a slight personality transplant). I've started taking steps to improve my mental health as well, I've also improved on being able to tell when its on a downward spiral so health definitely gets a tick.

So I'm counting the blessings of being 22, the end was definitely better than the beginning and I guess the only way is up from here on.