Tag Tuesday: A-Z of things I love

So I decided to do the A-Z tag of things I love for 'Tag Tuesday'.

A.

Autumn, it is the perfect in between its not extremely hot or cold, the fashion is so good and versatile. I love seeing the leaves change colours and it means the countdown to Christmas begins.

B.

Burlesque, it gave me so much confidence this year.

C.

Carbs, I tried the ketogenic diet to see if it would help my epilepsy, I didn't last a week before I gave in.

D.
Disney, it just makes me happy, no matter how old I am.

E.
Elephants. I'm slightly obsessed with them.

F.
Food, just food in general, I don't have a favourite.

G.

Going out, whether its shopping or simply going for a walk or picnic, I love just being out, unless its raining or cold.

H.
Hope, I have had depression for 8 nearly 9 years now so when I have hope or days of happiness it feels so good.

I.

Imagination, it has no limitation, it goes on forever and I guess that makes me happier, it has resulted in so many of my traits or interest like reading, writing and things such as films etc.

J.
Jokes, especially inside ones, those always feel more special.

K.

L.
London, I've said it before but I don't feel as anxious there and it just makes me happy.

M.
Make-up, it allows me to be creative and helps me to feel better.

N.
Nuggets, at the moment I may be a little obsessed, I don't have a favourite food but whether I have the chance I will have nuggets (battered not bread crumbs).

O.

P.
Pintrest, all my boards are private but I have so many boards, it is so good for inspiration or useful tips.

Q.
Quitting, I've realised, even more so recently that its okay to let things or people go that don't make you happy. If they're toxic or generally make you feel crumby then its okay to let them go and quit.

R.
Reality TV, it might be cringe but certain shows make me feel more content with my life and appearance. Its easy to watch which is perfect when you've had a stressful day.

S.
Shopping, which probably is one of the reasons I love London, it also was something I took into consideration when applying for uni.

T.
Ted Baker, I have a slight obsession its okay though.

U.

Unicorns, I don't even think I need to explain this.

V.
Vacations, even if its just to the local beach I just love exploring, seeing more than my home town.

W.
World Buffets, what is better than being able to eat Chinese food, pizza, sushi and dessert all at the same time. 

X.
Xmas, okay technically it should be spelt with a C, but its the same word and I love it. The food, the shopping, the music, giving gifts to the people I love it always feels so magical.

Y.
YouTube, like pinterest it has pretty much everything. It also allowed me to find a community of people who are lovely and kind and a result of that is that I now have some more amazing friends.

Z.
Zoo's I love animals and I get just as excited as the children who are there do. Especially with the elephants.

I want Tag Tuesday to be a fun, easy, and just something that lets me forget the stresses of life for a little moment.

Tag Tuesday: Ask, Me, About

So things have been a little crumby so I decided that I would do a tag. I know I've posted that I wanted to use this blog to have more of an impact and discuss topics I'm passionate about such as my epilepsy or equality but I just need something lighthearted at the moment. I'm also going to try and do a tag every Tuesday or every other Tuesday.

Ask

1. Sexual orientation

Straight

2.What I'm really bad at

Organisation, despite having OCD I also have a restless brain and can't seem to stay organised despite how much I try.

3.Description of my self esteem

Low, like rock bottom at times, there are times I feel bad about myself, my abilites and mainly my body, unless I know I've lost weight i.e. having to buy new clothes.

4.Favourite book

The Great Gatsby

5.Biggest turn offs

Nastiness, whether thats making judgements, generally being negative or making someones life worse. Younger guys, it might sound superficial but I just can't do it. Generally just acting like an idiot, like I can deal with a certain extent, but if you're going make ridiculous statements I just can't deal with it.

6.Description of my best friend

They're all beautiful, amazing, thoughtful, intelligent people who I adore.

7.Favourite Animal

Elephant

8.Someone I miss

Unfortunatly I never got to meet my granddad and my papa died when I was only 2 months, I have stories but I just wish I got to meet them. 

9.Reason behind my last break up

He was immature, a cheat, a liar and I'm not going to be treated like that
.

10.What I did yesterday

I went into town to pick up a few bits and bobs.

11.Greatest achievements
Surviving school, being almost 3 years into recovary and beating certain fears.

12.Description of who I dislike most
Catty, hypocritical and judgemental.

13.Favourite songs
Older Songs: Here and now, Slipping through my fingers, Summer of love and Spice up your life

New Songs: Secret Love Song, Love Yourself, Blank Space, Touch and Go and Wildest Dreams

14.Pets

I have a dog and a bird, I used to have a guinea pig and keep asking for more and another dog, however since I'm at uni mum thinks its not such a good idea.

Me

15.Favourite ice cream flavour
From the ice cream van: vanilla with bubblegum sauce and sherbet/fizz bits
Ben and Jerry's Karamel Sutra. Generally mint choc chip

16.Where I want to be right now
London, I am obbsessed with it and as I've written in other posts I want to live there.

17.Worst thing someone said to me
'You even failed at committing suicide'

18.I'll love you if..
Relationship wise: You actually know all of me down to what colour foundation I wear. We explore, you excite my mind.

Friend wise: You love disney, cope with my awkwardness/weirdness.

19.Future Plans
Move to London, have a career I love, explore, and just live my life.

20.Internal conflict I have
At the moment, I'm not sure how I feel about uni. I also consintely worry about life in general.

21.What I want to be

Happy, like I said I'm not sure about uni and I'm not sure who I want to be. I want to be as kind as I can be, I just want the best version of me.

22.Two Insecurities

My appearance and my abilities

23.If I won the lottery...
I'd go to Disney World and buy a house, I'd ideally be able to make it my dream home.

24.Description of my crush
Ambitious, intelligent, honest, funny and of course out of my league and I shouldn't fancy the guy.

25.Favourite thing about myself
My ability to face things that others couldn't deal with, general life hassles, my condition, my recovery. I don't let them get in the way of my life or my dreams.

26.Pet peeves
Arrogance, showing off, being judgemental, lying, winging, people who are unhygenic and/or lazy.

27.What I'm really good at
Messing up, that's my speciality, I should have an exceptional first degree in that.

About

28.Most traumatic experience
Years 8-10/11 in secondary school. Bullying, death threats, attacks aren't so fun.

29.Where I'd like to live
London.

30.Nicest thing that has been said to me

'Don't settle for a rock when you deserve diamonds' I've accepted some pretty rubbish things, I've thought I deserved them, I love hearing I've changed as well because I'm not exactly proud of the person I used to be.

31.Do I like where I am now

In respects to the person I am now, however in terms of where I live, no.

32.Biggest worry

Failing or not being able to achieve my dreams.

33.Something I'm waiting for

My future, for example I can't wait to move out properly or have a career that I love and enjoy.

34.Something I should've said a long time ago

'Thank you', I never told the people I was grateful for or the help they gave me when I had the chance. 

35.Last text message received

It was from my friend from uni.

36.What I hate about myself
I let things like my low esteem get in the way at times.

37.What I'm wearing
Minnie mouse pj bottoms and a Peter Pan top.

38.Words that upset me
Failure, Worthless, Hopeless, Ugly and the nickname I was called by the people who bullied me.

39.What I hated most about school

The fact that most of my year and other years bullied me, I got death threats, nothing was done, I used to get the blame. The fact my self harming wasn't taken seriously, certain staff didn't have faith in me until I proved them wrong, and then they 'always believed in me'. One member of staff also told me I 'deserved everything that happened/was happening.'

40.The last thing I ate
Oreo doughnut.

41.Last thing I drank
Water to take my medication.